around anderson university, students are almost too familiar with the phrase 'Looking in, Living Out,' it is the school motto for the year. for some reason i was thinking about it the other day and i realized something troublesome about the way i live. i do not embody the au motto. the phrase that would more accurately characterize my life would be more like, Living in, Looking Out. so for whatever it is worth, it was gutwrenching for me to come to the realization about how i truely live. i have been drawing conclusions about issues/problems without actually expriences them, i have been anti-social, unauthentic, ungenuine, shallow, hypocritical, and a self-serving person. this has in turn affected the relationships i still have and could have with other people. this affect (or effect whatever the differnence is between those two god foresaken words is) has cheapened my life because i am not as connected with people as a person should be. i need to get out more