What Kierkegaard Has Done to Me

"I see it all perfectly; there are two possible situations - one can either do this or that. My honest opinion and my freindly advice is this: do it or do not do it - you will regret both." Kierkegaard

i always have a deep sense that there is something better somewhere else, and i am missing out on it. this is true, there are countless opportunities that i would love to take part in, but i will never have the chance. this has always disturbed me to the point that i never have been satisfied by my current situations. basically, it has led me to a state of depression. i always want to leave, to transfer, to change my major, to break up, to move out, to leave. i want another life than the one i am living. the above quote exemplifies my frustration. because if i i were to leave and choose another, altogether new situation, i would still regret not choosing one of the other choices. moreover, i would regret not fulfilling the situation that preceded it, leaving it unfinished and not completely matured. thus i will never be content, right? yet, i know that there is a way to be happy. i am in the situation i am in for some sort of reason, and i can choose to be content with that. no. this is too hard for me to do or say. there are too many passions left unrealized. i want to do it all. i want to see it all. i want to be a part of it all. but i cannot. my life in the span of human existence is rather unimportant, thus the goal is eternal not finite contentment and harmony. Harmony is a daily struggle. there must be hope of this and i shall move towards finding it. 3.2.08